Many apologies...

...for not blogging like I know I should be. Life has been tumultuous, but in a good way. So where shall I begin:

Work

Work is good. It started off as great, until we lost two-thirds of our staff and I'm now working more hours than I really care to. However, I have been given lots of responsibilities, which I like and am still enjoying the things I do. I would just like to not have to do so much of them :D Hopefully, we will have more people hired in the next few weeks, which should lighten the burden on the few of us that are left - which will be very nice indeed.

Life

Life is damn good. I have a job I enjoy, my friendships have gotten stronger, even my relationship with my mom has gotten better (although I think that is due to my having a job she deems stable.) It seems we are all at a point where there is finally no struggle. That's not to say that things are easy, because they are not, but the struggle has subsided for a while...and it feels good. I am still as content as ever I have been so praise be to Allah for my good times.

Love

Still as elusive as ever. However, in recent weeks, there have been a few gentlemanly suitors who have caught my eye and have ultimately really helped me to understand what it is I truly want. "Hector" is what I want (or at least some other magnificent versions of him) This means I ultimately would like to date a hispanic, middle eastern, or greek man, who is of decent height with some meat on his bones and passion in his heart. Although the latter goes without saying as most ethnic men I have met have more passion in their pinky finger than some others take a lifetime to attain. This is what I want. This is what I'm waiting for...have been waiting for. It has taken a few great, but ultimately "no-go" guys for me to finally realize that. And now, I can wait. It feels good. I have always known what I was attracted to, but never really solidified what it was I wanted. I was afraid that to be so specific meant to eliminate possibilities. However, in truth, to know what I want is to open the door to limitless possibilities. And this time, I won't be settling.

Music

I haven't been able to get into much singing lately, though I have immersed myself in classical music again. I am thoroughly enjoying it. I promise, though, that once I have a reasonable work schedule, I will pick up my books again and get to work. December is fast approaching and I must be ready for my first audition. There are no excuses for procrastination or lack of preparation. I have everything I need to make what I want come to pass. I'll keep you posted on this one...

Etc.

So, I am considering moving to L.A. again. I didn't think I would consider wanting to go back, but strangely enough, I do. It's not New York, but it's a start. And I can't really rule out New York at all, because it is where my heart belongs and given the chance, I would move there in a heartbeat. I would hate to disappoint my best friend, but I can't cater to his life anymore. If he wants things to happen, he has to make them happen, and not by the soles of my feet can he be carried anymore. I told myself I would take better care of myself and I plan to continue to do that, by whatever means necessary. Again, I shall keep you posted on this as well...this is slowly, ever developing news that I feel will only get better as time progresses.